After the battle, Kijani wandered the ship in a bit of a daze, shaken by her first experience with combat, as brief and —for her personally, at least— uneventful as it had been. When the hyetzi started in on the surviving humans, she clamped her hands over her ears in a vain attempt to block out the screams —sick to her stomach; But, even then, her nose told her far more than she ever wanted to know.
Eventually, her pacing bought her past Drumbeat and Morgaine —she identified the pair instantly by their voices and scent—, and she unintentionally caught part of their conversation.
"... I was hoping they would be less... savage. The things I have seen make me wonder if either of these tribes even deserve our help. Perhaps we should have left it without our interference. I wanted to help Jyuta, but now, it seems that it was simply nature's process to have these two tribes battle each other. I don't want to sound harsh, but the spirits have their ways of ending things."
“T-they do… I just… I-I don’t think Jyuta deserves this. He can learn… If… we could just get him away, a-and maybe the big, nice hyetzu, too… t-then I’d be okay leaving the others to their fate. L-like you said… they deserve it.”
"But, do they really?" she interjected, approaching the pair. "Such things aren't for us to decide —that's the Gods' domain. And how do you determine such a thing?" she asked Morgaine, her disgust and anger at the whole messed-up situation resulting in an infusion of acid cynicism into her tone.
"What makes Jyuta any better than the others? In case you missed it, he's fully happy to go along with this twisted and insane scheme to wipe out an entire clan. And, if that alone doesn't qualify him as 'deserving to die' to you, then how do you judge the rest of his clan to be? They're just following the orders of their crazy matriarch —just like Jyuta—, we've never seen them do anything worse than that.
"Now, I suppose you could certainly make a non-hypocritical case for Torok's innocence —he's quite simple-minded, so it's very possible he doesn't understand what's going on; But, the point is, if we start making the determination that an entire people is unworthy of life, then how are we any better than them?" she finished, feeling a bit embarrassed by her outburst. But, she had believed everything she said —even if she'd ended up saying it rather more harshly than she normally would have.
It was just... all of this —especially what Drumbeat and Morgaine had said— went against everything she believed, everything she'd made herself into. There had to be some way to resolve this without entire clans getting wiped out. There just had to be....